I haven't been crazy about somebody in a long time.
It's a rather comfortable place to be. No drama. No fuss. No wondering if your affections are returned. No feeling tongue-tied. No sudden blushes. No drowning yourself in tears, pounding the pillow, or wondering if he even knows you exist.
Besides the fact that it is so comfortable, I have come to realize life has plenty of drama of its own, without the additional complications that a major crush brings.
And yet, I am desperately, daily, head-over-heels in love.
And in this love there is no drama, fuss, or wondering if my affections are returned. I love someone who loved me long before I knew of His existence. I don't ever have to feel tongue-tied, because I can tell Him everything, without fear. I am too comfortable in His love to blush. And ok, I will admit that there have been times I've drowned myself in tears over Him, and pounded the pillow. But I have always known, without a doubt, that He knows that I exist... and that I am never alone.
When I am flipping through radio stations in the car and hear one top 40 hit after another, I am struck by how much other people are missing out on this. Almost every song I hear is about love: forbidden, young, old, broken, renewed, and you can hear how very desperately everyone wants it.
There is truth in the words "all you need is love," but it goes so much deeper than that. The love of a human being will never be perfect. It will disappoint, become fickle, start to fade, and sometimes be lost completely.
But His love.... that is a different matter entirely.
It is a beautiful thing to know you are loved perfectly, and to carry it inside of you, no matter where you are. Each special love song on the radio is meant for you. Nothing can separate you from that love; not death or life, or anything inside or out of this world. That's pretty romantic.
It makes me smile. It makes me want to roll down the windows of my car and turn up the volume on the stereo. It makes me want to read all the letters He wrote to me; over and over, until I know them by heart. And it makes me want to tell everyone else about Him; He who loves me so perfectly.
He loves you, too. Just as completely. Do you know His name?
Today, I am fulfilled and at peace. Because my love is requited.
P.S. I meant to get this up yesterday (I'll have another post coming soon, as well), but my Valentine's Day was so busy (and fun!) that I ran out of time. How was your day? I would love to hear about it! :)